Thursday, November 02, 2006

feeling funky

Right now it feels like I live in Crabbyland.

I’m doing all I can to get out of it, but I’m in a major funk. Too much pressure at work, issues at church, hoping my sweet husband will get called for an interview with a particular company, body not being completely recovered from surgery and post-surgery fall, sister in an abusive marriage, still dealing with grief issues as a family, continued sleep/health issues, Mama is going to be laid off soon and financially she needs her job, two brothers about to have surgery, …

… I could go on but it just makes the funk worse.

And yet, I function in the normal day-to-day world as if there isn’t anything going on. As if every single detail of my life is just fine. Nothing is getting to me.

Or if it shows a little, I blame all the crabbiness on lack of sleep. And we all laugh because everyone understands being tired equals being crabby.

For those of you who tend to fret, don’t. (pray instead!) I’ll be okay. I’m a little stuck right now, but I do NOT plan on staying here permanently.

I’m thinkin’ that the myriad number of big things and the massive number of small things that have happened since December 15th have finally hit that over-saturation point for me. It will take a bit of time to get back to a more normal, cheerful self.

Hoping that my upcoming vacation time will be a big boost for that. I always take the week after Thanksgiving off since it gives me an extra bonus of time that way.

Three weeks from today, I’ll be on vacation. Not sure yet exactly what that will be or if we will go anywhere… but looking forward to 11 days of rest… and missing the end of month chaos for November.

…may there be mercy on my funky self.


Pastor Paul said...

Come visit.

Anonymous said...

Hugs and love, my friend, hugs and love.

Karen :) said...

(((~c))) We all have times like this. Just put yourself in ICU and hang in there!

Love ya!

K :)

sen5ei said...

we love your funky self anyway!

auntie-c said...

Thanks everyone... love you guys, too.

Paul - I wish!

Q - probably going to be down your way. Will know more by Sunday.

sen5ei - miss you and need to talk before you come up this way again.

auntie-c said...

Karen - I'm in quilting ICU all weekend. You know that helps. ♥